Accepting My Current State of Existance
Something I am getting better at, which is necessary for life in general and not just recovery, is accepting whatever my current state of existence is. Whether I feel like I’m in shape, excessively tired, or productive or not, I need to be able to accept where I am in life. Not just where I am in recovery, but where I am in life.
I have always been an overachiever; I always want to be in great shape, doing great at my job, and being a great mom, wife, and friend. I have always had this illusion that I can be perfect. It is just not possible, and the better I get at accepting that, the happier I get at being me.
I have recently realized that it is OK if my weight is not perfect, I am still in recovery and my body still has a lot of adjusting to do. I am still trying to get off the steroids, so that makes me tired some days. This is OK. I still have to grow a lot stronger immune system, so a cold can knock me down for a couple days. This is life, and it is OK to take it day by day.
In fact, it is best to take life day by day. You never know what life is going to throw at you, and life is never easy for anyone. So today, I am enjoying that my cold is over, I did Pilates without too much effort, and I know when my new house will be ready and the general timing of our move to Arizona! This is all very good news! Today I am accepting all of life, my current condition, and I am happy! J