Bouncing Off Walls
I am coming to the realization that this disease now has a complete hold on me. I can no longer go about life as if I am normal. The extra hard workout I did on Monday, probably combined with the one on Saturday and even quite possibly the fact that I have been pushing myself to get in good physical shape for a while, has indeed sent me into an exacerbation.
I am bouncing off walls and desks because I cannot walk straight, my fingers don’t want to do any fine motor movement, my limbs each way 1000lbs, and my eyes do not want to stay open. I need to learn to not push myself so hard. When it feels hard, ease up. When I get tired, take a break. If I cannot run as far one day, don’t. I think the pushing myself to the limit days are over.
I am super glad I ran that last half marathon; I do now believe it truly was my last. I say this with a tear in my eye. Both because I cannot do that anymore and because I am so proud of myself for doing it so I have the memory of winning over my body.
I truly believe life happens in chapters, and I have many chapters in my book. I have lived an extraordinary and exciting life that I hope to turn into a book and share with the world one day. I am now beginning a new one.
In this chapter I will learn to take even better care of myself by sleeping extra every night and by working out slowly at low intensity. I will continue to appreciate every little thing I can do, and I will continue to celebrate my life, my body, and my family. For each of those things are truly blessings. I do not need to have a perfect shape for jeans; I just need to keep my limbs working and my spirits high. I wish you all to do the same. Enjoy and appreciate what you have. Life is good!