Category: running

Uneven Playing Field

I went to the gym today to do my normal Tuesday/Thursday HIT (high intensity interval) class. I ended up leaving early, after only 20 minutes instead of the full 60 minutes for the class. I told the instructor, “I just can’t do it today.” I then I started to cry.  She asked if I got…

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Chapters

I have always felt that my life has happened in distinct chapters.  From gutting fish in Alaska, to backpacking through Europe – these chapters have molded me and made me who I am. Some are longer than others, and I certainly enjoy some a lot more than others, but all have imprinted on me. The…

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Was it Worth it?

A question that many people ask me after I’ve had the HSCT is ‘was it worth it?’ I always tell them that I cannot decide that for them. It depends on your personal situation, and when I did it I had no other choice. I was feeling like I was not living anyway, so if…

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Feeling Good

I am feeling good.  I have gone out to exercise three days in a row now. I am going to keep it up. I do not get so tired that I feel like I’m going to die afterward, but I get tired in the evening, and that is OK. I do not feel guilty. I…

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Balance

Balance is an important term for people with MS for many reasons. There is the physical balance that you lose which makes is hard to run, walk, and do yoga. For instance, I stopped running outside a while ago, when it got to the point that I fell every time. But luckily, because of the…

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Recovery Continues

I have been very unhappy with how my body performs lately. A lot of it is the recovery from the HSCT, and also the toll MS has taken on my body. But it is also that I have been having a hard time figuring out how to exercise in a way that works for me…

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The Need for Complete Honesty

I am once again finding the need to rein myself back in for a reality check. I seem to have a personality that makes it impossible to be completely honest with others or myself. When asked how I’m doing, I always respond, ‘great!’ ‘I am so much better, I am so blessed, I am so…

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Recovered! Or Close Anyway. . .

I am only two days away from my one-year-birthday, and I am finally starting to feel normal. It is the most amazing feeling! When it has been years since I’ve felt OK, it feels miraculous to feel normal. I am not always depressed and tired. I am not going to bed after I get my…

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The Gift of Rest

My husband gave me the best gift today. He told me to sit down and do nothing. OK, maybe I should start from the beginning and outline my week for you. That way you’ll understand better why he would tell me not to get anything done. On Tuesday, I decided I’ve gotten my house unpacked…

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Hybrid

I am learning that there are multiple levels of disability for those of us with relapsing remitting MS (RRMS.)  The first level is called ‘Think’; this level comes right after the diagnosis before you really have any disability.  You think about what might happen, what the future might or might not look like, and you…

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Stay Strong Until there is a Cure

I have been so busy lately I’ve had a really not been making time to blog.  The irony of this is that blogging has become one of the things that helps to ground me and keep me happy in the mist of all the uncontrollable chaos around me; so I decided to write a blog…

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On the Other Side. . .

All too often, we have a tendency to fall into the trap of thinking that the grass is greener on the other side.  We tend to think that if we could just be like so-and-so life would be so much easier.  If we just had money, or fame or were healthier, life would be better….

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The Power of a Positive Attitude

My Dad asked me if I could send him a couple of my blogs that I think show how I keep my spirit up.  His friend had asked him how I could stay so positive all the time, so he wanted to send him some of my blogs that outline how I keep my thoughts positive.   I asked how…

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Reactivity

One of the reason’s I love to run is because it frees my mind to wonder without getting bored; this is when I have the most clarity in my thoughts.  Often I think of great things to blog about, but if I’m too tired after, I don’t get around to blogging them! Last week I…

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Because I Can

I have always been into running, but I have not always been able to do it.   As someone with relapsing remitting MS, it is not always possible to work out.  I go through periods of weeks or even months where I can hardly get across a room, much less get to the gym.  This last…

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The Benefit of an Off Day. . .

With my latest goal of being “good enough,” I have found the freedom to pursue my goals without the pressure.  Without having timelines or defined obligations to meet, I find that I still try to get everything done; I just don’t feel as stressed out about it. Perfect example: yesterday at the gym, I had…

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Forward Movement

Newton’s law of inertia states that a body will keep its velocity and direction as long as no force in its direction acts upon it. One of the main factors in living a happy life is forward movement.  People have an innate need to feel that they are going somewhere, achieving something, making a difference. …

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The Best Me

It’s a new year, and I am making the same resolution I make to myself every day.  I just want to be the best possible Me I can be.  I want to live more in line with my values, and worry less about what others think.  This means trying to always remember and believe that…

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Why I Blog

A friend of mine asked me if she thought she should share my blog with someone she knows with MS.  I told her that was the whole point of my blog, to reach others with MS or other difficulties and share what I have learned to motivate myself.  She told me she was worried because…

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Mind and Body

This weekend, we stayed at Lake Quinault Lodge in the rainforest of Washington for some of the peace and quiet that a family with three small kids needs often.   With no TV or other electronics allowed for the time we were there, I had great expectations of family hikes on trails, board games by the…

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Mind over Matter

My new plan is to cut out as many drugs as possible and saturate my body with vitamins and minerals.  The thing about being on a steady stream of pain killers is that you become more sensitive to pain.  You also develop a tolerance.  This means you have to keep taking it, and you have…

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Living

At some point, you have to stop ‘surviving’ and start living.  As my health is slowly, but surely getting better, I have been focusing on how to feel better both physically, and mentally and I found my secret to happiness. The reason I used the word ‘my’ instead of ‘the’, is because it is not…

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Live as if . . .

When I was a young teen, I remember a very confusing conversation I had with my Grandfather after I had learned that he had cancer.  I told him I was sorry that he was dying and he responded by telling me that he did not know what I was talking about.  I started to argue;…

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Bouncing Off Walls

I am coming to the realization that this disease now has a complete hold on me.  I can no longer go about life as if I am normal.  The extra hard workout I did on Monday, probably combined with the one on Saturday and even quite possibly the fact that I have been pushing myself…

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Balancing Act

I have always known how important it is to stay in shape, especially having MS.  I have always been a runner, and have attributed the quick recoveries I have to past relapses to the fact that I stay in shape.  With this last bout of illness, however, I have not recovered very quickly at all,…

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The Blessing of Illness

The thing about going through months of feeling really crummy, having pain, and always being exhausted is that when I come out of it I enjoy all the things I would normally take advantage of. The evening chores that used to be hassles become something that make me happy after not being able to do…

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13.1 Miles

As we approached the top of the hill to start the half-marathon, I abruptly stopped my nervous chatter.  Suddenly, I couldn’t breath.  What was I thinking?  I not only had MS, but I had recently been so affected by the disease that I had a hard time just making it through the day, much less…

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The End of Training

My last really long run was 10 miles, two weeks ago.  Yesterday I ran 3 miles on the trail, and today I ran 6 at the gym.  I am ready for the half marathon next week.  Now it is time to rest. There is nothing more I can do to prepare myself in this last…

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A Way Out

I love listing.  I list things I want to do around the house, I list things that I want to do with the kids, I even made a list of all the lists I want to make!  Sometimes I make lists just for fun and sometimes I do it for a specific purpose.  I make…

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Success from Within

I have succeeded in almost everything I have started, and I believe everyone can do this; a person just needs to have the right attitude.  Everything you do should be done with intention and then it needs to be followed through on.  Whether the end goal remains the same, or changes course over time, as…

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Becoming a Morning Person

Since my last bout with MS, I have found that I have to run early in the morning. I have never been a morning person, and my highest energy level has always been later in the day. Running in the morning has definitely been a progression and a very large adjustment for me. When I…

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8 miles, and a little faith

This weekend my family and I stayed at what is said to be the longest beach in the world.  We had a fantastic time.  However, I did not get to run on the beach.  I was really looking forward to doing my long run for the week there, but the timing just did not work…

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Someday is Today

I do most of my running on a paved trail that starts very near my house. Towards the end of it on my way home, there is a dirt path that goes up to the road. It is a very rocky and steep path that I always see on my way home. I often say…

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7 miles

Today I ran 7 miles.  I am Just getting over my first really bad exacerbation since I was diagnosed with MS in 2000.  I was doing so well since I started the MS drugs there were times I thought I had been misdiagnosed, and there was really nothing wrong with me.  I have three kids, and…

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