Category: Stress and Anxiety

Mentally Disabled?

It was at an informational luncheon for MS that I met the first person to tell me she didn’t work anymore because of the reduced mental capacity she had due to the disease. This was in the beginning of my MS Journey; before I had many symptoms. I remember being in wonder at how someone…

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Let it be.

Something amazing happened to at the beginning of this week and I feel like a transformed person. I experienced a moment of tremendous relief. I have only experienced relief in this sort of magnitude once before in my life. That was when the excruciating MS pain I had been feeling for over a year finally…

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Balance

Balance is an important term for people with MS for many reasons. There is the physical balance that you lose which makes is hard to run, walk, and do yoga. For instance, I stopped running outside a while ago, when it got to the point that I fell every time. But luckily, because of the…

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This is Me

Symptoms of True Depression: You don’t want to leave your bed Complete exhaustion Inability to stop crying Not caring about personal hygiene You don’t want to talk to anyone     Benefits of it as part of the disease: You can recognize what it is and why you have it Knowing why you have these…

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Recovery Continues

I have been very unhappy with how my body performs lately. A lot of it is the recovery from the HSCT, and also the toll MS has taken on my body. But it is also that I have been having a hard time figuring out how to exercise in a way that works for me…

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The Big Move

The Merriam-Webster dictionary defines anxiety as “fear or nervousness about what might happen.” I am currently feeling a very large dose of this psychological entrapment. My three kids, my cat and dog, and my friend who offered to drive as I still cannot concentrate at a level that would make it safe for me to…

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The Good Stuff

I have recently posted a couple of depressing blogs. At least they seem so to others that love me. I want to make it clear that I do not find them depressing. I use this blog to be able to say the feelings I am having that I do not readily tell people who ask…

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The Questions Don’t Stop

I am watching this show, Six Feet Under, which has an amazing story line and character development. One of the brothers has found out he has something wrong with his brain that can cause an embolism or stroke at any time and he doesn’t know what to do. I can so intimately relate to this…

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Everything Will Work Out and I Cannot Stress Out

This is a very busy time in my life. No matter how much I try to simplify things, they always get out of control. Recovering from a Stem Cell Transplant is apparently not enough for me! My body is not back to normal. I’m still on steroids, and will continue to be for some time….

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Unwanted Guests

With MS, it is not just how you feel day to day that is questionable, but it’s hour to hour that really gets me.  I can go from 1 to 10, in terms of pain, in less than an hour.  And Pain’s BFF, Fatigue, is never left behind.  As I can no longer predict my…

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4:00 AM and Spinning

I have always had a bit of insomnia.  I recall times in high school where I would stay up all night watching TV because I couldn’t sleep, then sneak back into my bedroom before my Dad got up so he wouldn’t make me stay home.  I hated missing school.  If I missed a class, I…

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