Today I ran 7 miles. I am Just getting over my first really bad exacerbation since I was diagnosed with MS in 2000. I was doing so well since I started the MS drugs there were times I thought I had been misdiagnosed, and there was really nothing wrong with me. I have three kids, and I have run 2 full marathons, and several half-marathons. I always knew staying in shape was harder for me because I tire easily, but I also knew how important it was, and as long as I could do it, I would run. I always had one more step in me. I had been planning on doing a half marathon in eastern Oregon. It is supposed to be a really easy one because it is all down hill. How can you get better than a run that is all down hill? I was super excited to start my training when I was already in great shape. I had been running 4-5 miles every day and it was easy for me. I was probably in the best shape of my life. Then it hit me. I had burning pain in my legs and arms, and I could not walk up the stairs in my house without feeling like I’d been doing squats with 100 lbs for 3 hours straight. I knew I was having an attack. I had to put everything on hold. I was barely able to go to work, but I kept trying even if I had to leave early. I was in pain 24 hours a day, and nothing could help. The thing I hate most about this crappy disease is that the doctors don’t even know what to do! Try this drug for a while, if that doesn’t work, try this one and see what happens. And they all have side effects. So now I have a dry mouth, can’t think straight, and I’m still in pain!
Well, today, I finally feel like I am on something that will help the pain. It makes me tired, but the pain is gone. And I ran 7 miles this morning! I have been over the exacerbation for a while, because my energy is almost back to normal, but the burning in my arms lingers. I know that the only way to get back to normal is to keep trying to get back in shape. I have found that I now have to run in the morning, but I have also found that I like that better. It is a great way to start the day! And since I’m so tired every evening, it is no problem going to bed early! 🙂
I have decided that I am still going to run the half marathon I had planned on in August. Maybe not as fast as I had previously hoped, my goal has changed from breaking my time, to just being able to finish it. But I am going to finish it. This may be my last one I am able to do, so I am not going to let this pesky MS stop me from doing it!
Today I ran 7, today is a good day! Every day I can run is a good day, even if it makes me hurt after, it is worth it. Because I did it! I am bettering myself and moving forward!