Recovered! Or Close Anyway. . .
I am only two days away from my one-year-birthday, and I am finally starting to feel normal. It is the most amazing feeling! When it has been years since I’ve felt OK, it feels miraculous to feel normal. I am not always depressed and tired. I am not going to bed after I get my kids off to school anymore. I am able to run without it being miserable. I can feel the joy of moving my body that I was desperately trying to keep in my memory for so long so that I could get there again!
I know that sometimes it takes another year to get completely back to normal, but I still feel completely blessed to be here. If I could get better, I cannot imagine it! And I will remember that I could still have a few down swings in the recovery.
I decided that it would be a good idea to write a blog listing all the things that being really ill has taught me.
- Patience! Knowing I will not feel good everyday, and waiting to feel better.
- Not pushing myself hard every day. That just hurts your recovery it turns out.
- Letting it be OK to spend a day in bed.
- A messy house can be tolerated.
- It doesn’t matter if you feel like you’re being lazy, you’re listening to your body.
- Its great to be proud of running only two miles!
- It can feel great to run two miles and not feel miserable afterwards.
- The weight-gain will eventually come off, but you cannot make it in the first year of recovery.
- It’s OK to be just who I am any given day.
- I will recover completely from all of this and life will be good again!
- Celebrate every small accomplishment!
- Don’t forget to thank God.
- Don’t forget to thank all those around you for supporting and understanding.