The Me I want to be. . . .
I was told I need to start calling this ‘the Me I am’, not ‘the Me I want to be’, but either way I have a plan on how to be happier with myself that I am putting into action. I am a pretty happy person to start with, but dealing with the ups and downs of MS and the mental symptoms that come with it (stress, depression, anxiety) make it hard for me to be as happy as I want to be. So – I have decided that I need to become the Rachel that I want to be, and get rid of the traits I don’t admire.
It’s the little things that I am changing, and I am finding it really does make me feel better. First, I threw out all my old underwear and bought new sexy panties. I also decided the new Rachel wears nightgowns to bed, not just an old tank top, so I bought a few sexy and comfortable nightgowns. I suggest everyone do these two things if nothing else, it really does make a difference in how I feel about myself.
The last thing I am doing is an on-going project. I have made a spot on my mirror where I look at myself every morning that I am putting little post-it notes with adjectives I want to have used when people think of me. I also have put the ones I fear I might be seen as and crossed them out to remind me not to be them. I keep the post-it’s and a pen in a little basket on the counter so I can add to it whenever I think of something. My Mother was nice enough to add one of her own good thoughts of me when she last visited and used my bathroom. I try to read these daily, and it makes me feel good and strong; ready to face the world and be the best Me I can.